Bhang and Renge

In the spring of my days,
I already dreamed of you.

In the summer when I saw you,
I already fell in love with you.

The autumn when you left,
returning home...was cold and intense.

And in the winter, harsh and punishing.
I long for your kisses, your warmth, your embrace...
your love.

Words solve everything,
but sometimes...they're not enough.

I don't want an armed conflict.
Just for saying I want you,
just for saying I love you.

And maybe I'll have to apologize,
with tears in my eyes.
for not knowing how to express what I feel for you,
without tears in my eyes.

I know I am a good man,
and I don’t need to beg or plead for anything.
What is given to me — it's in my hand to accept.
And what is not — it is within me not to desire it,
nor to take it by force.

If you ask yourself,
you’ll see that I was always by your side.
That for you I have killed, and for you I would die.
That if I had you in my arms, I couldn’t let you go.
And if you were to die in them,
nothing would stop me from
leaving my body behind, and following you until the end of days.

If you ask yourself...

Yes, I’ve had bad luck.
Yes, I loved you.
I cried for you, even felt betrayed.
At one point, I even wished for death —
because my life had lost all meaning.

If you ask yourself,
my life no longer holds meaning,
I swear I have no ikigai left.

But it will come to me.
Somehow.

Still... what will become of me without you?

It's true, I've lost time, loves, friends.
And none of them will ever come back.

I've missed out on the most important things in life, like:
my youth — sick, sad, alone;
I've lost opportunities, I've lost the chance to have a wife.
And even though I have many descendants,
I've never spent even 24 straight hours beside any of my children.

I'm losing the person I’ve valued most in my life.
And the chance to be happy for the rest of my days.

And you, my love?
You lost 250K for not accepting my good will...
and another 300 or 600 women with your same name
had no hesitation in accepting the money.
Yet none of them stayed by my side.

What should I do? many would ask.
Some would ask God, their parents, or family.
I’m asking you.
Because if I ask myself… neither I nor the world would find peace.

But still, I ask myself, and I say:
You have a world to conquer.
For the love of a woman will never be again.
You were the last chance,
when in truth, you were always the first.

And I, I believe I can no longer believe in love.
I don’t think it’s possible anymore.

Yes I am

Yes I am the one

The one that could make the world burn..

Just if you were just not on it

The one that
Will protect you from others
and from yourself 
Fiercely and even bloodily.

The one
Thats able to put himself
On this dangerous love
Where the wounds of distance kill
Where the silence of many year weight heavily 
Where the absent of your lips
Just made me
What I am
And what i ever was
Your dangerous lover

💕 

LOVE YOU AND EVER WILL

I hope one day..
You can say proudly
I was the first man you love.

That cover and kill for you.

That you can say proudly.
He never stopped loving me,
Nit for a second, since I came to his life.

That you can say to all.

He sweared love and respect me, 
for the rest of the life.
On the richness and on the poorness
On the health or sickness.

That you make em all see.
I'm a man of word.
And I accepted this fate

You too.

😭♥️😭