YOU LEAVE ME NO WAY TO LOVE
I. Letting Go It wasn’t that we couldn’t.It was that you let gowhile I was still holding. I learned to open my handso what didn’t want to staycould fall.Letting gois also a form of lovewhen staying would mean lying. II. Broken Commitment I called homewhat you called an option. While I spoke of sacrifices,you had already chosennot to understand that word. You didn’t just break a commitment:you broke the placewhere I was willing to stay. III. Not a Priority I was never the center.Not even the edge. I was the “later,”the “we’ll see,”the “not now.” And still I loved youlike someone watering a landthat doesn’t belong to him. IV. The Damage You hurt me.Not out of cruelty,but out of indifference. That hurts more.Because it leaves no enemy,only an absencewhere faith once lived. V. Love Without a Body I loved youwithout kissing your skin,without touching your voice,without inhabiting your days. I loved you in silence,in private promises,in futures that never existed. That was real too.Even without proof. VI. A Clear Conscience I leavewith empty handsand a clean chest. I did what I could.I said what I felt.I waited just enough. No guilt remains.Only tiredness,and a sad peacethat is honest. VII. The Decision I don’t stay where I’m not wanted.I don’t insist where I’m not respected. I open the door in front of meand step outwithout looking back. Not because it doesn’t hurt,but because stayingwould hurt more. VIII. Final Silence Now I go silent.Not to punish you,but to save myself. Silenceis not absence:it is a boundary. And here endswhat I was with you. IX. The Door I don’t close out of anger.I close because I’ve reachedthe end of myself with you. This door makes no noise.It doesn’t creak.It asks for no witnesses. I open itlike someone who understandsthat not everything we loveis