Bhang and Renge

Yes I was wrong.Sometimes that it’s hard to admit.I was wrong when I said the word that makes me feel wrong is goodbye.Cuz it’s not.I would like to say goodbye to many things, and few people.Even some situations.Word I dislike the most it’s…I’m sorry.Cuz I always felt the worst part.Cuz they expect the apologies, will be accepted. Or not.Say I’m sorry it’s not enough.It was never enough.Even with the promise I won’t do again. I see not many have word on this world.And they will keep making the same mistake.So if you want to calm my sorrow and my pain.Must say this.Humm…I would like to apologize,There’s something I could do for making you feel better?Just take care of the pain you caused.Cuz I can easily say.Get out from sight.And also…Goodbye.That are the words peopleshould fear more from me.Cuz I’ll walk awayWith whatever the feeling it is.And I’ll carry your sorrow.And my wounds.

she said she was older than she was…and it happened again….now she says she is younger than she is..its all a lie what i can expectthis all happens when you dont let me sleepwhen your thoughts consuming mewhen your action its none at allwhen bury me in your soulwhen you destroy myself deep in your heartand nothing ever will remain.is it your soul my final breath?is it your heart where i should rest?

First thing I must say…it’sIt was a pleasure had love you, even with no touch.Even you had touched my heart every night.With this I mean my love came from the inside. From the depths of my inner self.Where i tried make space, clean and bring u in.1st reason…it’s you had broken your promise..Seems you have no word.And be such a coward, for not claiming what was yours.2nd reasonIt’s…that seems I’ll be the one that will pay your wedding.Tell me it’s lie..that i didn’t pay a dowry I should had not.Thats also the word of your family?I will tell them all.3rdI’d been waiting my whole life, and even being able send you with me,Your family had decided punish me with more waiting.4thNone of your action had really approached you to me.Now a single call, it’s useless, barely will serve to hurt us more.5thYou had never caredSo now you I will bury this reasons,And my hopes with them.I wrote this reasons on a paper..and i thought on write behind one motive to love you.And I had thought itAnd it was valid Just I didn’t wrote itIt will lie on my heart.As a tomb, tomb you will never visitCuz it’s yours.I do not write this to get u mad.To show hate, or any means your misunderstanding of what love is.You just must see..I had reasons enough for it.

Today, you lose.You lose me. You lose the hope of a joyful future.You chain your fate to a miserable existence—of loss, fear, and suffering.Those you love most will leave your side.And yet, you will always have me.Burning in rage, crying out for vengeance.I will take them all, like the Angel of Extermination.For this, God brought me into the world.They forbade me everything. They stole my time.They punished me. They humiliated me.Nothing shall remain but the ashes of this world,and the eternal love God once held for us.They kept me from joy, from giving my heart freely.Now I am untamed, an indomitable executor,who will strike without mercy—in my own way, but without mercy.Thus have you made me.

Ten thousand nights I have wept your absence,and ten thousand more, for the wound of your love.A thousand poems have bled from my soulfor a glimpse of heaven beside your light.I no longer know how to let go of what I feel.I no longer know how to cry—unless it’s for you.I no longer know how to love—unless it’s you.I no longer know how to write—unless your shadowquivers at the edge of every verse.And I no longer know what hell awaits mefor this love that won’t forget,that won’t die,that burns me still—like a god without a shrine.

If you ask what do I see on youI see beautiful womanWith such nice and big heart.With good caring of her self and the ones you love.You got a nice a soul,A nice smile, nice eyesMany things are pretty on you.I see you got ambition. Will…And power over me. I’m not afraid of it.I dare you to chase,to follow, to lead.I didn’t dare you to love me.But you did.You showed it with every single thing I mentioned.For long years.Ever thankfulSurely we bothI love you as you are..as you came..As you build up your self.Will we ever regret on us?Surely not Thousand times I’ll commit the mistake,On this life or others.Of seeking for you, no matter hard it could be. No matter how far.Cuz I know it was never a mistakeWalk my steps to you.Would you walk with me?When I finally can touch you.